It’s time for CHANGE?

So yeah I’m back and the operation went…well? Probably, nobody told me if it did or maybe they did but I was just so out of it that I might have forgot. So while being under the effects of anaesthetic was an interesting one and made me wonder about being knocked out and all and how that’s just amazing, this whole knee deal with the swollenness and the pain is a bit of a bummer but hey at least I’ll actually be able to fully straighten my leg after this which thinking about it is actually quite exciting as I haven’t been able to do that in three years.

My recovery is going okay I guess, I haven’t really been about to do the physiotherapy exercises on account of the pain and it just not physically being possible to actually lift it for any of the exercises but since it’s getting better I should be able to do some of them now and all, hoping to be able to walk if not shuffle about within the next few days but I still have to take it easy though. But I’m actually quite excited and positive about what I’ll be able to do and all now.

See, you could die due to anything really everyday but when you’re doing risky stuff you think about it more

This was actually scheduled to go up on the 14th but since the date has been brought forward this post will be brought forward too

So this is it, the day before I go inside. I know it’s not even a life threatening procedure but I just can’t help thinking “what if?” or “Will I be here tomorrow?” and similar questions. The plan is to wake up tomorrow with a hole in my knee, small price to pay though but you know I think what if I died? I know if I died I shouldn’t…worry? Care? Well…I can’t anyway seeing as I won’t be aware of myself to experience that or whatever…basically I got to thinking what would people make of me? You’re always thinking that you know someone when the curveball that has “death” labelled on it comes your way. The question is, do you preserve your memory of them with what you know or do you dig deeper into the murky territory and potentially unravel some things that you might possibly wish you never knew?

Of course humans being humans, they’ll never really listen to advice and always want to experience things for themselves, to see if that cat is really alive or dead and then lament and rue the fact that there wasn’t enough warning. That nobody really tried to stop them…but heh, the more you try to keep things a secret, the more people want to know about it. It’s just human nature. That very nature that we end up regretting at some crucial point in our lives.

So either this is my last post or I’ll cross this bridge unhindered and see you on the other side, only time will tell.

Neeeeeedles

Eurgh, blood tests, I learned things about it today. What's that you ask (nobody asked that but I'm going to answer anyway) I still don't like needles. When I was told that they'd need to take a bit of my blood I was apprehensive and felt at unease. When the nurse went to get the equipment for it I had a little think to myself and asked myself, why didn't I like needles and injections, what was it about them that put me right off them because I had forgotten...yeah.
I remembered as soon as the needle went in, it was just eurgh... Anyway tomorrows the day! Yay!

Earlier than expected

Update time, so I got this call today from the Royal Free Hospital and GOOD NEWS, there's actually an earlier slot I can take for my surgery which is actually tomorrow rather than next week but every day counts so I took that slot. I could be back earlier than I thought...huh, feels weird to know that I could soon be playing football again if it all goes to plan but I'm happy if it means I can. First I need to do the pre-op first which I'm on my way to as I type this and will have done already when this gets posted up.

Also I got Tekken 6 and Final Fantasy XIII for my Xbox and got rid of Pro Evolution Soccer as it was just bad, might get it later at a reduced price if I feel like it but we'll see. Played Tekken 6 for the first time last night and first impressions are...it's bloody impossible to read the text on a standard definition television so while I struggle to make heads or tails of the commands and that the gameplay is not bad, takes a fair bit of getting used to with the Xbox controller. Haven't really done much with it yet, just watched the opening movie for scenario campaign, completed arcade mode with Zafina and just been in practise mode a whole lot but I think I like it.

Sure it's different to previous editions in that all the characters a unlocked from the start which means I don't get the sense of excitement at unlocking someone new but I guess it does mean I can pick whoever I want to. Next up is FFXIII and I eagerly await the next chapter in this instalment and hope it's just as much fun to play and the story is just as gripping as the previous games in the storyline.

Still has that annoyingly loud hum though

So now I have my Xbox 360 and Nintendo Wii back from Lee I can play things on them really during the evenings and nights I’m not doing anything. YAY!

The only downside of it all is no internet connection which means can’t really go only with most of these games but meh that’s alright to be honest I can deal with that. Got sooo many good games I need to catch up with and all that.

My weekend also consisted of updating my CV and job hunting which I’m hoping maybe some employers will actually get back to me but ya know.

So I got to play all sorts of games like Left 4 Dead 2 and that’s still and fun and exciting as ever so I think I’ll be sticking with that. Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2, the game that everyone raves about about that…yeah, that’s sort of put me off that as did the fact that it’s a serious first person shooting game and I find them to be quite dreary so I don’t think I will have much love for that but I’ll try and complete it but it really isn’t my sort of game. I also learned that perhaps I need to get some more games for the Wii as Mario Kart and Super Smash Brothers Brawl isn’t really cutting it anymore, Sonic Colours looks interesting though so I might consider that

Finally there was Pro Evolution Soccer 2011 which yeah…no, that’s awful and is going back. I don’t have much patience for that anymore and I’ll see if I can get something else for that. Just awful.

But what lies in wait for today though?

Well today should involve me going various places and hoping signing on for a computer course and that which no doubt will help my qualifications a bit, more job hunting and all that jazz.

Really? Qatar?

So England will not be hosting the 2018 World Cup which may or may not be a surprise depending on how closely a person has been following the news and all the allegations of corruption by the British media and all.
Russia I suppose yeah, I think that’s a good choice as they’ve never hosted a World Cup before and will be interesting to see how it’s handled. Now I know it’s a World Cup so country from all parts of the world should get a chance to host it but I have to admit it came as a bit of a surprise to me that Qatar would be hosting it in 2022. Where to begin? Well for starters I would have gone to Australia if FIFA wanted to give it to somewhere that’s never hosted it before, but Qatar? Really? Ah well, I hope that they do a good job of hosting it as do Russia but you can’t help feel a bit annoyed at it all. Quite frankly I was not following the news of corruption and all this bidding process too closely but it does make me wonder why go through the whole process of wanting to take games around the world and to as many different countries in the first place and then string certain countries along with it. No doubt it will seem even more annoying when it found out how much was spent on this bidding process to then eventually feel that you never even had a chance in the first place.
I’ll stop there as this really isn’t something I should be following, my interest is playing the sport and watching the big events but it is cringe-worthy when you go onto Facebook and see all the comments being made on it and *shudders* No. Just no.
So I guess it’ll be some time (if ever) that I’ll witness a World Cup on my doorstep but there’s still the Olympics what with the traffic and price increases and the over crowdedness…Hmm maybe it’s better England didn’t get it.

YEAHHHH

YOU KNOW WHAT!? I CAN DO ANYTHING I WANT, ALL I HAVE TO DO IS APPLY MYSELF TO IT.

THE SKY IS MY LIMIT!!!

My song choices II

One song that’s been getting heavy play on my iPod recently is a G.O.O.D Friday track form Kanye West which features various guests. Christian Dior Denim Flow by Kanye West with John Legend, Pusha T, Ryan Leslie, Lloyd Banks and Kid Cudi is one that I suppose I would be disappointed that it didn’t make the cut for the album but nonetheless it’s still song that I will very much like and if I had a car, I would be playing this in it.