Credit where it’s due

I feel.....that I'm never going to get the props I deserve...I could play out of my skin and yet someone else will get more credit.

Ha...I never thought I'd get annoyed with being Mr Reliable but there you have it, anything my teammates can do, I can do just as good if not better when it comes to technical things and eurgh...I dunno, maybe, maybe I am getting the praise now I think about it but I come across as someone who if you tell me I will not be fussed or something I don't know...

Anyway I guess I don't really respond the way people expect me to but you know what? I don't care, I'm not going to bend over backwards to please you...if I'm happy with myself then I'm happy, I feel I have come a long way from a year ago but still not where I would like to be just yet.

James did bring up a good point about me not doing as many tricks as I used to do in Mary Hare and I thought "fuck, he's right" but I know exactly why that is...I had to cut them out of my game when THAT injury happened as it affected my knee if I moved it in a certain way. So then I changed my play and became about passing and playmaking as opposed to taking my man on.

Anyway, now that my knee is better I can actually go back to that way but first it requires me to shed a bit of weight simply to make me a lot more agile and to make it easier for sudden changes of direction which a lot of my tricks utilise. I've been working on that and I'm happy with how it's gone so far however there's still work to be done and I can't help but grin at how excited I am at this...it's almost been a year since that operation and look at where I'm at and where I'm going.

Also just as a side note and a reminder...I have an addictive personality so don't even think about trying certain stuff. The things you're addicted to now is bad enough...(though I could argue that I'm not actually dependant on it but whatever)

The Samba Magician journey

I had a dream last night…although technically it should be referred to as this morning but whatever. Anyway, I was coming back from a knee injury I had and was a substitute for a football game for my school team and when I did get on the pitch, me a Philip proceed to play dazzling one touch football and quite simply destroyed the other team even though I only came on for 5 minutes but yeah…

So yeah, I got to thinking about my current situation and how I can get back to the Jason that I used to be, with terror and frightening the other team. I mean, I still do now but I just don’t feel right, like I’m not at the best of my ability.

Maybe it’s just I don’t feel fit enough or that I feel bogged down by something but I just really need to sort that out and get back to it. Maybe a schedule and routine which lets me get back into it all would help? Though it’s a bit hard when you have to work on the only days you get to play football. Ahh well, given the choice between the work I do and football, money wins out every time and hey I love the job anyway so it’s not as it’s bad or anything. The only way it’d get better is if they actually paid me to play football hahah.

At least I haven’t forgotten

Hmm, should get back to updating this thing soonish, plenty to say really…